By me 12/2021 I wish you loved me, like black coffee, like an endless sea, like it wasn’t wrong, like a love song… That’s unconditional… natural and strong, and in your arms, I’d belong. I wish you’d see, and hear my plea my tears are tea, my heart is strung, broke and twisted, trampled then … Continue reading Lucid Amber Dreams
A step on the journey
Renewal
After finding out from one of my dearest friends, who I’ll call Lahnis here (means sword; spear, IDKHTS), Smoke Signals was on Paramount+. I decided to watch it. It’s been a while, maybe even close to a decade. I had very few moments in that movie where I didn’t cry, mostly from projecting all my … Continue reading Renewal
So what’s a himdag, you ask?
I’ve been doing a ton of writing; I have lots of thoughts running around loose in my head. However, I’m not ready to go into detail, at least not without diving into what brought me to himdag (him-ee-dawk). So I guess explaining what it means is where we’ll start. I first heard the word himdag … Continue reading So what’s a himdag, you ask?
Happy International Women’s Day
Today is International Women's Day, and at work, they had various activities lined up to celebrate. One of the activities was recognition from associates; some mentioned wives, mothers, older sisters, even customers got shoutouts. Any woman that anyone wanted to include and celebrate. Not a single person nominated me. I know I've only been there … Continue reading Happy International Women’s Day
Why a blog and why now?
I started this blog for a few reasons, but I'll start with proposing to my BFF. I decided to get the ball rolling on getting married and starting a family with my best friend (and ex) of 12 years. While that is fantastic news under normal circumstances and a time for celebration, I proposed to … Continue reading Why a blog and why now?
Personal Essay
I had an epiphany recently; while conversating with a former best friend from high school, he spoke about his battle with addiction and brought up the topic of self-perception. He explained how he couldn't see that he had an addiction. At the time, he was addicted; he didn't realize he was an addict. He could … Continue reading Personal Essay
and so we begin…
If life was a highway… If life is a highway, then I accidentally went down a dirt path at some point and have been lost since I was 19 and telling everyone I have met on this “life highway” that “I’m fine,” “I’m not lost,” “I know where I’m going….” And people believed me. The … Continue reading and so we begin…
finding himdag 