Now that I’m finally out of my own head and ready to blog the way blogging is supposed to be done… I want to conclude The Unhinged Beast as part of my blog. I’ll be holding back details from my childhood until I can collaborate with those I’ve mentioned. It’s hard to foster understanding when … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Conclusion
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The Unhinged Beast – Origins III
As I mentioned in part one, these memories happened around the time I started kindergarten or first grade. I was about five or six years old; Hemako (means: one) and I used to play at a park across the street from the house where we (sometimes) lived with Nisi-ohg (means: my real father). This is … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins III
The Unhinged Beast – Origins II
I want to clarify that I don’t like violence or arguing as a default. I’ve never been a violent person. I don’t like hurting people, even when they’ve been mean or hurt me. However, violence is not out of the question for me either; I had a violent childhood. As a child, I had violence … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins II
The Unhinged Beast – Origins I
Forward: I'm apparently the type to need a forward ahead of my blog posts, but here we go, I guess. I have finally recognized the "perfection is the enemy of good" messages Co-Star as been telling me... Below is the beginning of another personal essay on the origins of the various characters that make me … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins I
Healing Pain
I keep reflecting on my experiences with pain since having had these Ketamine infusions and the clarity that comes afterward. It’s like my introspective abilities increase twofold. I’ve likely had an extremely high tolerance to physical pain before I was injured, thanks to physical abuse and trauma in childhood. This was realized after the night … Continue reading Healing Pain
Renewal
After finding out from one of my dearest friends, who I’ll call Lahnis here (means sword; spear, IDKHTS), Smoke Signals was on Paramount+. I decided to watch it. It’s been a while, maybe even close to a decade. I had very few moments in that movie where I didn’t cry, mostly from projecting all my … Continue reading Renewal
Personal Essay
I had an epiphany recently; while conversating with a former best friend from high school, he spoke about his battle with addiction and brought up the topic of self-perception. He explained how he couldn't see that he had an addiction. At the time, he was addicted; he didn't realize he was an addict. He could … Continue reading Personal Essay
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