During my stay with Mehi Mohto’s (fire carried on the head) family this past summer, I reflected on how various events positively shaped my childhood. This period allowed me to gain a new perspective on resilience. An insightful 2017 article from The Atlantic redefined resilience for me: “Current [American] culture thinks of resiliency as gutting … Continue reading Nurturing Resilience: Unveiling My Childhood Struggles
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Beyond the Pain: Finding Solace and Support in Unexpected Places
This past month of healing has been a period of inspiration filled with hopes and plans for the future. I'm eager to return to work, begin physical therapy, initiate several side hustles, and intensify my focus on inner self-work. In this solitude, I've found profound peace and comfort. Currently, I am about four weeks into … Continue reading Beyond the Pain: Finding Solace and Support in Unexpected Places
Breaking the Chains: The End is a Beginning
Have you ever felt completely alone, even surrounded by people? The last couple of months have been agonizing as I've realized that for 34 years, most of my relatives and relationships have been abusive. It hit me when I realized that I have no one to trust or who loves me unconditionally. I was left … Continue reading Breaking the Chains: The End is a Beginning
Selfish: My Journey to Self-love
This journey continues... Sharing one's story should never induce trauma, a concept reiterated in my therapy sessions. In the past, accusations of dishonesty or dismissals after sharing my traumas led to an intensified sense of trauma and silence. I thought I’d rid myself of behaviors that invited potentially harmful people into my life, yet I … Continue reading Selfish: My Journey to Self-love
The Unhinged Beast – Conclusion
Now that I’m finally out of my own head and ready to blog the way blogging is supposed to be done… I want to conclude The Unhinged Beast as part of my blog. I’ll be holding back details from my childhood until I can collaborate with those I’ve mentioned. It’s hard to foster understanding when … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Conclusion
The Unhinged Beast – Origins III
As I mentioned in part one, these memories happened around the time I started kindergarten or first grade. I was about five or six years old; Hemako (means: one) and I used to play at a park across the street from the house where we (sometimes) lived with Nisi-ohg (means: my real father). This is … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins III
The Unhinged Beast – Origins II
I want to clarify that I don’t like violence or arguing as a default. I’ve never been a violent person. I don’t like hurting people, even when they’ve been mean or hurt me. However, violence is not out of the question for me either; I had a violent childhood. As a child, I had violence … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins II
The Unhinged Beast – Origins I
Forward: I'm apparently the type to need a forward ahead of my blog posts, but here we go, I guess. I have finally recognized the "perfection is the enemy of good" messages Co-Star as been telling me... Below is the beginning of another personal essay on the origins of the various characters that make me … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins I
Healing Pain
I keep reflecting on my experiences with pain since having had these Ketamine infusions and the clarity that comes afterward. It’s like my introspective abilities increase twofold. I’ve likely had an extremely high tolerance to physical pain before I was injured, thanks to physical abuse and trauma in childhood. This was realized after the night … Continue reading Healing Pain
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