I’m forever thankful that Ni-Kahk (my paternal grandmother) gave me the tools of encouragement, confidence, and the ability to use a dictionary to strengthen my reading skills. Having caught up to my peers and eventually surpassed many of them, the next major tool I received came from my mentor, whom I’ve mentioned in my opening … Continue reading Boundaries, Books, and Survival: A Teenager’s Toolkit for Chaos
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Knowledge is Power: My Grandmother’s Tools
I don’t doubt the school did everything they could to help me, this was the tail end of the 90s and the data and tools we have now didn’t exist. It was the summer before fifth grade, and I was being advanced while the reading tests showed I was two years behind my peers. Teachers … Continue reading Knowledge is Power: My Grandmother’s Tools
Nurturing Resilience: Unveiling My Childhood Struggles
During my stay with Mehi Mohto’s (fire carried on the head) family this past summer, I reflected on how various events positively shaped my childhood. This period allowed me to gain a new perspective on resilience. An insightful 2017 article from The Atlantic redefined resilience for me: “Current [American] culture thinks of resiliency as gutting … Continue reading Nurturing Resilience: Unveiling My Childhood Struggles
The Power of Tenacity: The Building Blocks of Resiliency
Tenacity as defined by Google; noun: the quality or fact of being able to grip something firmly; grip. The quality or fact of being very determined is determination. The quality or fact of continuing to exist: persistence. Staying with my friend's parents reignited many memories from my childhood because I could openly share adverse events … Continue reading The Power of Tenacity: The Building Blocks of Resiliency
Breaking the Chains: The End is a Beginning
Have you ever felt completely alone, even surrounded by people? The last couple of months have been agonizing as I've realized that for 34 years, most of my relatives and relationships have been abusive. It hit me when I realized that I have no one to trust or who loves me unconditionally. I was left … Continue reading Breaking the Chains: The End is a Beginning
The Unhinged Beast – Origins III
As I mentioned in part one, these memories happened around the time I started kindergarten or first grade. I was about five or six years old; Hemako (means: one) and I used to play at a park across the street from the house where we (sometimes) lived with Nisi-ohg (means: my real father). This is … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins III
The Unhinged Beast – Origins II
I want to clarify that I don’t like violence or arguing as a default. I’ve never been a violent person. I don’t like hurting people, even when they’ve been mean or hurt me. However, violence is not out of the question for me either; I had a violent childhood. As a child, I had violence … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins II
The Unhinged Beast – Origins I
Forward: I'm apparently the type to need a forward ahead of my blog posts, but here we go, I guess. I have finally recognized the "perfection is the enemy of good" messages Co-Star as been telling me... Below is the beginning of another personal essay on the origins of the various characters that make me … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins I
Healing Pain
I keep reflecting on my experiences with pain since having had these Ketamine infusions and the clarity that comes afterward. It’s like my introspective abilities increase twofold. I’ve likely had an extremely high tolerance to physical pain before I was injured, thanks to physical abuse and trauma in childhood. This was realized after the night … Continue reading Healing Pain
Renewal
After finding out from one of my dearest friends, who I’ll call Lahnis here (means sword; spear, IDKHTS), Smoke Signals was on Paramount+. I decided to watch it. It’s been a while, maybe even close to a decade. I had very few moments in that movie where I didn’t cry, mostly from projecting all my … Continue reading Renewal
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