I’m forever thankful that Ni-Kahk (my paternal grandmother) gave me the tools of encouragement, confidence, and the ability to use a dictionary to strengthen my reading skills. Having caught up to my peers and eventually surpassed many of them, the next major tool I received came from my mentor, whom I’ve mentioned in my opening … Continue reading Boundaries, Books, and Survival: A Teenager’s Toolkit for Chaos
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Knowledge is Power: My Grandmother’s Tools
I don’t doubt the school did everything they could to help me, this was the tail end of the 90s and the data and tools we have now didn’t exist. It was the summer before fifth grade, and I was being advanced while the reading tests showed I was two years behind my peers. Teachers … Continue reading Knowledge is Power: My Grandmother’s Tools
Unraveling Codependency: Lessons from a Leaky Bucket
It’s a New Moon today, July 17th, 2023, officially at 11:32 am AZ time. New moons are about setting new intentions and giving yourself a fresh start. This is when you’d want to set goals and implement them for the next month. In astrology, the themes happening in Cancer this month are those dealing with … Continue reading Unraveling Codependency: Lessons from a Leaky Bucket
Make Changes NOW
Change the names back to their original INDIGENOUS names. They already have names. It's time for us to rise. The thunderbird will appear and it means a lot of different things depending on where you are... I suggest Squaw Peak be called Thunderbird Peak and Papago Peak changed to Segui Rise and "Sentinel Peak 'A' … Continue reading Make Changes NOW
The Unhinged Beast – Conclusion
Now that I’m finally out of my own head and ready to blog the way blogging is supposed to be done… I want to conclude The Unhinged Beast as part of my blog. I’ll be holding back details from my childhood until I can collaborate with those I’ve mentioned. It’s hard to foster understanding when … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Conclusion
The Unhinged Beast – Origins III
As I mentioned in part one, these memories happened around the time I started kindergarten or first grade. I was about five or six years old; Hemako (means: one) and I used to play at a park across the street from the house where we (sometimes) lived with Nisi-ohg (means: my real father). This is … Continue reading The Unhinged Beast – Origins III
Every Mourning
Kadi I once held warmthAnd she held meHer eyes beamed raysWith love so freeSo clear in my mindThose hugs I still feelLaughing, playing, happySmiling at me stillThis sweet baby girlWho I love so muchIf I could make a wishIt'd be her touchEvery memory of us pastIn my heart until my last 4/28/2011 to 5/30/2013 I … Continue reading Every Mourning
Healing Pain
I keep reflecting on my experiences with pain since having had these Ketamine infusions and the clarity that comes afterward. It’s like my introspective abilities increase twofold. I’ve likely had an extremely high tolerance to physical pain before I was injured, thanks to physical abuse and trauma in childhood. This was realized after the night … Continue reading Healing Pain
So what’s a himdag, you ask?
I’ve been doing a ton of writing; I have lots of thoughts running around loose in my head. However, I’m not ready to go into detail, at least not without diving into what brought me to himdag (him-ee-dawk). So I guess explaining what it means is where we’ll start. I first heard the word himdag … Continue reading So what’s a himdag, you ask?
Happy International Women’s Day
Today is International Women's Day, and at work, they had various activities lined up to celebrate. One of the activities was recognition from associates; some mentioned wives, mothers, older sisters, even customers got shoutouts. Any woman that anyone wanted to include and celebrate. Not a single person nominated me. I know I've only been there … Continue reading Happy International Women’s Day
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