I’m forever thankful that Ni-Kahk (my paternal grandmother) gave me the tools of encouragement, confidence, and the ability to use a dictionary to strengthen my reading skills. Having caught up to my peers and eventually surpassed many of them, the next major tool I received came from my mentor, whom I’ve mentioned in my opening … Continue reading Boundaries, Books, and Survival: A Teenager’s Toolkit for Chaos
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Kwanzaa: A Journey into Cultural Pride and Controversy
As we move through the final days of December, I'm three days behind sharing my reflections on Kwanzaa. I didn't grow up celebrating Kwanzaa, a secular holiday from December 26 to January 1 that offers a moment to reflect, rejoice, and recommit to key cultural and community principles. Last year was the first time I … Continue reading Kwanzaa: A Journey into Cultural Pride and Controversy
Beyond the Pain: Finding Solace and Support in Unexpected Places
This past month of healing has been a period of inspiration filled with hopes and plans for the future. I'm eager to return to work, begin physical therapy, initiate several side hustles, and intensify my focus on inner self-work. In this solitude, I've found profound peace and comfort. Currently, I am about four weeks into … Continue reading Beyond the Pain: Finding Solace and Support in Unexpected Places
Breaking the Chains: The End is a Beginning
Have you ever felt completely alone, even surrounded by people? The last couple of months have been agonizing as I've realized that for 34 years, most of my relatives and relationships have been abusive. It hit me when I realized that I have no one to trust or who loves me unconditionally. I was left … Continue reading Breaking the Chains: The End is a Beginning
Every Mourning
Kadi I once held warmthAnd she held meHer eyes beamed raysWith love so freeSo clear in my mindThose hugs I still feelLaughing, playing, happySmiling at me stillThis sweet baby girlWho I love so muchIf I could make a wishIt'd be her touchEvery memory of us pastIn my heart until my last 4/28/2011 to 5/30/2013 I … Continue reading Every Mourning
The Gladiator Conquers Walls
By Me 7/2022A heart of guarded partitions Veiled cracks and fissuresYour love’s tumultuous soundJericho’s walls crumbled downFlaws revealed, naked, exposedHumbled by your light; you freedUnconditional once a dreamReality unzipped seamsFinding strength in fragilityThese words peace in sincerity
Renewal
After finding out from one of my dearest friends, who I’ll call Lahnis here (means sword; spear, IDKHTS), Smoke Signals was on Paramount+. I decided to watch it. It’s been a while, maybe even close to a decade. I had very few moments in that movie where I didn’t cry, mostly from projecting all my … Continue reading Renewal
and so we begin…
If life was a highway… If life is a highway, then I accidentally went down a dirt path at some point and have been lost since I was 19 and telling everyone I have met on this “life highway” that “I’m fine,” “I’m not lost,” “I know where I’m going….” And people believed me. The … Continue reading and so we begin…
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